I just checked my email. I applied for a job Friday. The sent me an email rejecting me. I'm not good enough. I'm never good enough. I'm a failure. I would be better off dead. I can't get a fucking job anywhere. No one ill ever hire me. I'm not thin enough and pretty enough to even be a waitress and some shitty dive of a restaurant. I'm never going to amount to anything. I'm never going to be able to afford to go to college again. I might as well die. Everyone would be so much better off without me. My mom keeps yelling at me. Telling me how I'm such a failure. I should have had a job by now. I should have "tried" harder at housekeeping. It's "not that hard" and there's no fucking reason I couldn't make time. I just want to die. No one cares. Everyone abandons me. I give up. I'm done trying.