I try not to post more than once a day but... I have a job interview tomorrow.  Finally.  Just one, but I feel fairly confident.  I mean my problem has always been getting the interview.  My last name is like a curse.  I didn't change my last name when I got married.  I wanted to but D didn't want me to.  He doesn't want anyone to know we are married.  It's complicated.  :/  Anyway I have an interview!  I'm excited.  It's a gas station/convenience store, but it's better than nothing.  I've had about 250 calories so fat today.  I'm hoping to stay under 600.  I will stay under 750.  I would be under 100 if I didn't eat the damn brownie.  I counted it as 170 cal even though I know it's less.  I've done some exercising and I feel pretty good.  I've had like 4 pieces of gum so far today.  I was going to try to lose weight in a healthier manner, but I can't do it.  I don't want to and it's too hard for me to force myself to.  I like the number 750.  So I think I stick to eating around 750 cals a day.  J may not like it but he won't ever have to know.  He doesn't come back for like 2 months and when he does I'll lie and say I weigh more than I do and maybe gain 5 lbs before he comes and then lose it when he leaves.  No problems.  And D doesn't care how much I weigh as long as I'm alive and not in the hospital.  D doesn't care how I lose it.  J would.  I was thinking about going to town and buying some fingernail polish and diet pills.  Fingernail polish because I just like to have it.  If I could ever stop biting my fingernails I would paint them.  I have/had blisters on my feet that aren't completely healed yet so I don't want to paint my toe nails until those are healed.  I painted them one day but took it off the next day.  I didn't like the color.  And now I'm rambling.  I'm in a good mood is why.  And I'm pretty much addicted to Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO.  I've watched it like 10 times today.  I have that song stuck in my head.  I love it.  J has like the same taste in music as me.  I like 98% of the music he likes.  The music D listens to I either hate or it reminds me of the Little Mermaid.  I keep waiting for the crabs to start singing Under the Sea.  And D never understands my reference.  I should quit rambling now.  Good moods do these things to me though.  I may start posting before I go to bed.  I am hoping to maybe post pictures Friday.  Any and all requests are welcome and I will try my best.  Just leave a comment.

~Kes