I try not to post more than once a day but... I have a job interview tomorrow. Finally. Just one, but I feel fairly confident. I mean my problem has always been getting the interview. My last name is like a curse. I didn't change my last name when I got married. I wanted to but D didn't want me to. He doesn't want anyone to know we are married. It's complicated. :/ Anyway I have an interview! I'm excited. It's a gas station/convenience store, but it's better than nothing. I've had about 250 calories so fat today. I'm hoping to stay under 600. I will stay under 750. I would be under 100 if I didn't eat the damn brownie. I counted it as 170 cal even though I know it's less. I've done some exercising and I feel pretty good. I've had like 4 pieces of gum so far today. I was going to try to lose weight in a healthier manner, but I can't do it. I don't want to and it's too hard for me to force myself to. I like the number 750. So I think I stick to eating around 750 cals a day. J may not like it but he won't ever have to know. He doesn't come back for like 2 months and when he does I'll lie and say I weigh more than I do and maybe gain 5 lbs before he comes and then lose it when he leaves. No problems. And D doesn't care how much I weigh as long as I'm alive and not in the hospital. D doesn't care how I lose it. J would. I was thinking about going to town and buying some fingernail polish and diet pills. Fingernail polish because I just like to have it. If I could ever stop biting my fingernails I would paint them. I have/had blisters on my feet that aren't completely healed yet so I don't want to paint my toe nails until those are healed. I painted them one day but took it off the next day. I didn't like the color. And now I'm rambling. I'm in a good mood is why. And I'm pretty much addicted to Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO. I've watched it like 10 times today. I have that song stuck in my head. I love it. J has like the same taste in music as me. I like 98% of the music he likes. The music D listens to I either hate or it reminds me of the Little Mermaid. I keep waiting for the crabs to start singing Under the Sea. And D never understands my reference. I should quit rambling now. Good moods do these things to me though. I may start posting before I go to bed. I am hoping to maybe post pictures Friday. Any and all requests are welcome and I will try my best. Just leave a comment.