I keep eating. Part of me wants to stop and the other part says today has already been fucked so might as well keep eating. So I keep eating. Tomorrow I won't eat much. I'm hoping to get by with one bowl of cereal and some carrots and whatever supper is. Hopefully something I don't like so I can make something low-cal for just me. I'm going to gain like 5 pounds because of today. I'm going to restrict as much as possible and exercise as much as possible for as long as I can. I'm hoping to get to 115 by May 10. That gives me a week. I'll be like 5 pounds. It's possible, but it won't be easy. I want to be 107 by the end of May, but 110 would be acceptable. I can't focus too well. I haven't been able to all day. My mind is like racing and like a million thoughts go through my head all at once. I just need sleep. I will wake up and exercise and then maybe eat or watch tv depending on what time it is. I won't eat until after 10:30. Then I won't eat again until 2. Then hopefully not again until 6. I'm going to get ready for bed soon. I think a sleeping pill is in order tonight.