Saturday, December 19, 2015


It's been a stressful however long it's been since my last post. My weight is up and I'm not sure why. I really hope I'm not getting my period and it's just from stress and not eating right. It's been stressful because of work and Christmas coming up and birthdays. And not having money and wanting to do so many things and wanting to buy so many things for other people. I'm hoping after Christmas is over I'm less stressed and I can have more free time to exercise and cook healthy low calorie foods for me. I need to appear like I'm being healthy and eating enough calories. After the new year I should have plenty of time to exercise after work on Mondays and Tuesdays because I should be getting off work at 2 pm. I'll have time to rest after work and even nap first if I wanted. My life is very much not exciting right now. I'll probably start looking for a new job after the start of the new year also. I need out of debt and I need to lose weight. I can't believe I let myself get this big......


Saturday, December 5, 2015

I Don't Know What to Title This

I'm so unsure what to say. It's so depressing to see so many blogs gone. Some of my favorites are gone. Part of me wants to unfollow every inactive blog I follow and start over. But part of me hopes some will come back. Part of me wants to read the blogs that are inactive that still exist before unfollowing. I'm just so unsure. It's a bit overwhelming. If anyone can point me to active blogs that I may not be following that would be wonderful. I think there's like 3 active/semi-active blogs that aren't truck advertisement blogs in my feed. I would like something new to read while trying to clean out my blogger account of deleted blogs and such. That will take some time. I'm not sure of what else to say right now... I guess goodnight unless it's morning, then good morning. I think I'm gonna take some pills and go to bed.

Thursday, November 26, 2015

3 years later

Happy thanksgiving. It's been over 3 years. Wow. I tried to log on but I couldn't figure out which email/password I used. It was saved on the computer I haven't really used in forever. It was broke for over a year so I bought a new one. In those 3 years a lot has happened and at the same time not much has happened. It seems like the community this place used to be has kind of largely fallen apart? Disappeared? Moved elsewhere? My dad passed away in September 2013. I totaled a car. I dated several guys. I was with a guy for about 2 years and that kind of fell apart recently. I honestly think he is dealing with too much stress and refusing to do anything about any of it. He cannot change his dad but he can try harder to budget and get out of debt so he can move out. He is slowly turning into his dad. A fat lazy slob. We used to go to parks and hike and now he can't even walk for 10 minutes without being winded or saying his feet or knees hurt. I've gained quite a bit of weight. I'm trying to get rid of it but it was hard with the lazy boyfriend who only wanted pizza, pasta, mountain dew, and chocolate milk. We'll see how losing weight goes now. The question is, should I come back to this blog or use my current one?