My daughter does not like to sit still. I had about 550 calories for supper. I'm too tired to do much of anything. I was looking for thinspo, but I quit because I'm tired. I found like 3 pictures and gave up. I was just kinda going through my facebook friends' pictures. I found one of me from like 2008? Maybe 2009... Not sure. Either way, I'm not fat. I could be thinner, but I don't look bad. I managed to weigh myself earlier. I couldn't decide if I wanted to or not. I didn't have much time to decide, so I stepped on. It said 118. Hopefully I can lose another pound by the time I get to weigh myself again. I wish I could quit obsessing over my weight and calories and how many I've burned/need to burn, ect. I wish I was just naturally thin and happy. I just want to be happy. I'd settle for being on the smaller end of average if I was happy. I don't want to be just average. I'd rather people say she's kinda small kinda average. Not she's just average. She's just ok. I don't have any true friends. I thought I had one. But she got a boyfriend and then could ever hang out with me. Because I'm not one of their friends. And apparently I can't even meet him and their friends and become one of their friends. So I haven't talked to her in months. Then the rest of my sort of friends are away at college or whatever. One went to Florida to work at Disney. I can never remember if it's World in Florida or if it's Land. Doesn't matter too much. Anyway, I don't have any one to hang out with ever. Probably why I've taken to obsessing over weight and such. And probably why I post so much. Nothing else to do. I've tried to get people to hang out with me, but they won't ever. They just say things like I have to check my work schedule and I'll have to see. And they never say anything back and such. I want friends who are either skinny or active. I don't want ones that sit around and watch movies while eating ice cream and stuffing chips in their mouths. I wish I could have stayed in Colorado. I would have been happier. Probably would have been fatter though. I suppose I've rambled enough. It's almost late enough that I might be able to go to bed. It'll take me at least 2 hours to fall asleep though.