I now weigh 120. I was really hoping for 119. But at least it's still a loss. Only one pound in two days. I've had 200 calories so far today. I had 1 cup of cereal with 3/4 cup of milk. I used to think that I always put more than a cup of cereal in my bowl because I would pour it in the bowl and now measure it. I was surprised how full the bowl was. I used 3/4 cup of skim milk because I like milk and 1/2 cup seems like such a small amount to me. And it made 200 calories that way. The cereal was a Kashi GoLean kind with 13 grams of protein and 10 grams of fiber. It had 140 calories in 1 cup and 3/4 cup of skim milk is 60 calories. So I figured I'd eat 200 calories and see how long it will last me. I would like to stay under 800 calories today. I worked for 6 1/2 hours yesterday. Hopefully burned a few hundred calories. I would like to weigh 117 by Thursday, but I don't think that will happen. I would have to lose like a pound a day. I think I'm going to start a load of laundry and take the dog outside to potty and fill out some job applications. I really hate my job. I like the amount of exercise I get (sort of) but I hate the work. I hate how I'm just off in a room and never see any one or talk to any one or anything. And I'm always getting bitched at because I'm not good enough no matter how hard I try. I wish I could just quit, but I can't until I find another job. FML. I just want the number on the scale to go down. It must go down. That's the most important thing.
Side note. I just remembered what my mother said last night to me. My arms are getting big. BIG?! WTF?! Stupid job making my arms into the Hulk's. I'm going to turn into a fucking monster. I'm going to look like she-man with arms stronger than most guys. I really really need to find another job. I don't want muscular arms. I want thin fragile looking arms. UGH! I have to lose like 3 inches off of my arms now. UGH! FML. FML.FML.FML.FML.