I said earlier that I was going to try to post pictures so here are some pictures. And yes, I know, I'm not skinny and I'm not beautiful. I'm still just fat and ugly. I'll be skinny when I lose about 20 more pounds and I'll be beautiful probably like never...but being skinny will sort of make up for it. Sort of.
So me at my HW:
Like I said, my belly was fucking huge. My face isn't as fat in my pregnant picture as it is in the other pictures.
Anyway, I think I'll skip the me at 123-125 because it's kinda close to where I am now. I know, bruises and stretch marks - eww - no one wants to see that, but it makes it easier for me to gauge my progress if there isn't a bunch of clothing hiding my fat.
So, me at 119:
I need to lose more. Quite a bit more. I need a gap between my thighs. I need that belly of mine to go away. I need to lose more weight. I need my hip bones to show. I need my rib bones to show. I'm getting there. It doesn't look like 35 lbs difference to me, but it is.
I went over my calories allowance. I ate some ice cream cake. I really don't think I ate a serving worth. But it was probably 300 calories worth. So now I must burn off like 300+ calories. I might burn off 150 tonight and burn off like 500 tomorrow. I don't work so I can restrict easily. A diet for breakfast and gum and water for lunch maybe. Not sure but I'm going to stay under 750. I might go to Iowa. I can avoid eating easier that way. My parents will just assume I ate and leave me alone. I could probably do a liquid fast all day, but I don't know that I want to. Any way, I have calories to burn, then probably go to bed.
~Kes
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