I can't weigh myself until like Tuesday. My dad is a high school teacher and it happens to be the school's spring break. So I can't weigh myself because he will be around. So I don't know if I've gained any more or if I'm the same or if I lost or anything. It sucks. I don't want to wait 5 days before I can weigh myself. I really need to find a way to weigh myself. In 5 days I could end up well into the 120s. I don't ever want to go back to the 120s. I don't know what I'll do if I weigh myself Tuesday and the scale says like 125. I really need the scale to say 115. And since my dad is here, I'm going to have to have normal breakfasts and lunches. Half a cup of dry cereal and a diet won't work. I'm going to have to have a bowl of cereal (unmeasured) with milk (unmeasured). So I'm not going to be able to tell how many calories I'm getting. It's really going to suck. I really hope I can control my eating and not binge. Speaking of binging, D really pissed me off last night. He said he wanted to binge. And then listed some random foods that he would "binge" on. So I told him to just go do it. And of course he doesn't he just keeps talking. He never shuts up. And then he said he would purge after. I know he won't purge. He doesn't know how and I just know that he wouldn't any way. And he was really pissing me off. I felt like he thought binging and purging and EDs are ok to like joke about. Like they're nothing serious. Like they can't result in death. Well, I have to go. Write more later, as usual.