Welcome to all of the new followers that haven't gotten a welcome.


Sick.  Miserable.  Depressed.  Weak.  Dizzy.  Faint.

My throat hurts.  I have puss pocket things.  I feel weak.  I feel like gravity is increasing if I stand.  Like there is a pressure pushing down.  Trying to compact me.  Make me shorter.  And possibly fatter.  I don't feel like making an attempt to count calories consumed or burned.  I ate quite a bit earlier.  I doubt it was really that much.  I could be wrong though.  It was quite a bit at once though.  I realized some time later that I was not hungry and food (which has calories) would not fix my throat.  Frozen yogurt felt ok eating it, but it didn't really fix the problem.  I'm pretty sure I'm just really thirsty/bored and need something to consume.  I would chew gum to keep my mouth occupied, but if it is thirst, I need to drink.  So I've had about 5 cups of diet green tea, one bottle of diet pop, I finished the soup which had a broth-like-ness, and I'm still drinking diet green tea.  I think I'll be living off of mostly fluids for several days at least.  I'll make some sugar-free strawberry lemonade stuff later (0 cals) and probably drink all of that tomorrow and more green tea and diet pop.

I really don't feel like talking.  I thought I should welcome the followers (since I tend not to) and let you know I am alive and plan to say that way, I'm not abandoning this blog (I just feel sick and depressed and I just want to hide in my little corner and sleep and read) and that I'm reading blogs (not commenting much).  I've got a lot to think about.  D, finding a job, college, figuring out a way to move away from here, how to lose weight when I'm not motivated to exercise, ect, ect, ect.

~Kes