My mother just asked me if I've lost more weight. How the hell would I know? I didn't get to weigh myself today. I don't remember what I weighed the last time you asked. I wouldn't let you know if I did anyway. I'm sick. I have an excuse. I'm trying to live off of liquids. I'm not as bloated as I normally am because I'm drinking enough. I'm actually hydrated for a change. And of course she asks me as I am eating a brownie. Does it look like I am starving myself? I've had about 3 brownies, 1 Greek yogurt, and a pizza thing I made. I would guess it totals between 800 and 900 calories. It's not even 3 yet. It seems like it should be later though. Either way, my throat hurts and I shouldn't have eaten the pizza thing or the brownies. The pizza thing hurt to eat. The brownies sort of hurt. I've had 4 cups of strawberry lemonade and 4 cups of green tea and I've got a bottle of diet Dr. Pepper. I was thinking about doing some crunches or something about the time my mother asked me about my weight. I'm going to see if I can make it through 50. I'll try to do 250 crunches total and 100 squats and 100 lunges and whatever else. But I'll do smaller groups. 50 crunches at a time instead of 100 and 10 squats instead of 25 and just do smaller groups and take more breaks. I don't want to end up sicker but I feel like I need to exercise. I talked to J a little yesterday. Talked to D and he was supposed to call me but I'm guessing he feel asleep and he didn't bother to call or text me. I called him out of boredom and he pissed me off. I don't want to talk to him. I just want a divorce. But I don't want it to take a year (i wanted to use irreconcilable differences but apparently we would have to be separated for 6 months before we could start the 6 month long process of divorce). 6 months is long enough. So I need to figure out a way to get him to file a divorce. I'm done dealing with him.
I should be doing crunches.