Welcome to my new followers.
I've been lacking the ability to concentrate. I try to focus and get things done but it is so fucking hard and I don't have a clue why.
My weight this morning was 113. 113 is my lowest. I've been there once before, but I gained. I'm back now though.
I'm sure you all wonder how the fast went. I managed from 9:30 pm until like 5:30 pm. 20 hours. I was getting quite bitchy. People kept calling the fucking house to. Grandma, my sister, recorded message, my dad's friend. All within 2 hours. Why?! I baked some bar cookie like things. They aren't very good. I didn't take any tastes or anything when I was mixing it. And then I baked them and "ate" two. They are sitting in my drawer in a napkin yet. I tried them after I gave in to food. They aren't that good. I'm glad I only hid 2. I ate like 1 of the bar cookie things, a peach, two bites of a pork chop (the rest got fed to the cats and dog) and I ate a few chocolate chips and chips and salsa and some frozen yogurt. It seems like a lot off food but I had just a little of a lot of stuff. I had been craving food in general most of the day and I wasn't wanting 1 thing so I went with a little bit of several things. I wish I could have gone those 4 more hours but I didn't need my parents coming back and me being a major bitch either.
I've had a peach, 1/4 of a grilled cheese, and two egg roll wrappers with 14 g mozzarella cheese. It totals about 290. I remembered my dad has a scale thing that he uses to weigh packages to mail (he's an E-Bay/auction addict and mails stuff a lot so he uses it to know how much to charge people for shipping) and I can use it to weigh things. Super simple. It's nice. I weighed the cheese and I weighed the peaches for the hell of it and I weighed some potatoes so I may bake a potato later and I'll know which one to use and how many calories it is. I can only use it while everyone is gone though. They would freak if they knew I was weighing food to calculate calories. But it makes it nice. I can figure out just how much pasta to make and how much cheese to use and everything.
If anyone knows any online divorce websites that are trustworthy let me know. Comment of e-mail. I don't want to talk/write about the shit with D. It's only going to make me cry (again...) and my mom will be home soon and I can't be looking like I've been crying. I doubt any of you wants to read that bs drama. I'll tell you if you want to know but not right now. Even if you don't want to know I might tell it some other time. Just not now.
I was thinking about posting personal pictures sometime like tomorrow or something but I don't know. Comment and let me know if I should or not and if you want to see something (like a picture of my little dog while he's getting a bath or something) let me know and I'll see what I can do. I will edit pictures if I feel the need to. Example: Someone wants to know what AA looks like, so I may blur out his face or crop off his head completely or psychopaint his face (or the entire picture) or something.