Kinda scattered/random thoughts. My mind is not functioning properly. For various reasons. I hope this makes sense though.
I had about 1200 calories yesterday. My mother bought pizza for supper. Barbecue beef. Not sure how many calories are in it, but pretty much guaranteed to be a shit ton. If it wasn't for that, it could have been a decent day. I estimated the pizza at 800 calories. I had 1 2/3rds slices.
I weighed 112 this morning. I bought some groceries after work yesterday. Mostly healthy or semi-healthy stuff. I bought 3 boxes of healthy cereal, 3 boxes of Nutrigrain bar things, a package of caramel corn rice cakes (for a sweet low cal treat), reduced sugar oatmeal, plums, grapes, green beans, and whole-wheat pasta. I think that was all I bought. I needed things that I could take to work so I could eat something on break or after work so I wouldn't come home and binge. The more healthy food there is, the more likely I am to eat it and stay away from junk. I hope...
My sister has the car I normally drive because she was going to go look at a car in the Cities. So I am either stuck at home or driving a car with no insurance. And "don't open the passenger door because it will break". I feel lazy so I'll probably stay at home. It's hot out too. The high is supposed to be like 94 degrees. So I'll probably stay at home. I didn't fall asleep until like 1 am and I woke up like 5 times before finally getting up at 8:30 am. So I'm tired. I should try to do a little exercising. Like some push ups, squats, lunges, and crunches. I need to start exercising again. It hasn't been too long since the last time I exercised, but it's been long enough.
Monday I have my appointment at Planned Parenthood. I'm hoping I can get on bc and not have to pay a lot. I can't really afford much right now. Since I bought groceries, I don't know if I have any money that I can spend. I don't know if I can even afford to get my hair cut. I'll have to figure out my budget again.
I don't know what's for supper. I'm hoping it's healthy and low cal. My moods have been all over the place. I need it under control but I threw away my pills so I can't really control them. I don't know how. I'm a mess. Tomorrow will be one year since I left for Colorado. It's making things difficult. I left on August 25th from Iowa. I got to Colorado on the 26th. That night I got drunk and lost. On the 27th, I OD'ed. So that's part of the reason I'm so scatter-brained. So yeah. I can't deal with it all right now. I'll just post some pictures and shut up now.