I've managed to push everyone away. I guess it just shows that I am worthless and that I'm just a waste of space. No one cares. J won't talk to me and AA told me to fuck off. That leaves me with.... uh... no one. I don't know what to do. I want to die. I might as well. I don't see any other option left. I feel too sick now to want to eat. I was planning breakfast and lunch and snacks. Now, I'm just not going to eat. Restricting won't be a problem now. Hopefully by next week I'll be skinny enough to die.