I talked to D the other day and he told me he has a son back in Africa. I didn't have too much time to talk to him so I have no idea how old his son is or much of anything really. But it kinda pisses me off that he lied to me about that. He told me he didn't have any kids when I asked him and he's had millions of chances to tell me that.
D will probably get a job soon (background check just has to be done) that pays a little over $14 an hour. Because of things that are slightly (but not really) complicated, I'm going to stay married to him a little longer. I can't (or rather won't) say much about it. But J thinks that I should stay married to D a little longer. J would tell me if he thought it was a bad idea but J doesn't think it's a bad idea. But J also said I should marry D in the first place. Anyway....
I'm hoping the dress I ordered will be in like Monday or Tuesday but living sort of in the middle of nowhere, it might take a little longer.
My work schedule next week is fucked up. We have a new time clock system thing and now I have to use and 11 digit number to clock in and out and it schedules people to come to work and leave at stupid times like 2:15-7. We would generally have a cashier work 9-2 and another 10-4 and one from like 4-10:30. Now it's all fucked up and we'll probably end up with 1 cashier working at the busiest times and like 4 working at the slow times. I only have to work 5 days. Better than working 6 days. Means more time to do things like exercise and blog. The other good thing is I don't have to close. Closing is really annoying. This stupid bitch I work with, I keep hoping for the day she gets fired. She keeps pissing me off. She disappears at the busiest times and a bunch of stupid shit. I just want to yell at her most days.
So I've taken like 6 Dexatrim pills and I'm not going to take them again until Monday. Monday is when I will be restricting and exercising and everything like a good little disordered girl should. Or as close to that as I can... I can't really this weekend because I gotta finish cleaning my room and my parents are home. Parents being home means restricting and exercise are harder. I'm going to try to make a diet plan sort of thing for Monday through Saturday and try to stick to it as best as possible. Hopefully 750 cals or less a day. Or at least average out to that. And hopefully I can get in a good amount of exercise most days. I'm hoping to see 115 or less Monday. I want to be 113 or less by Friday.
I have protein powder that's 110 calories per scoop thing. It tasted pretty gross when I made it with water, but it might be good in coffee... I love mocha... I have some mocha mix stuff that has 60 calories in it. I bought it from work for $1 because it was shortdated. I have some granola bar things too. 140 calories in one. They taste decent. I was really stressed and hungry after work so I bought some. Stress caused me to eat a lot yesterday. You don't even want to know how much I ate. So today and tomorrow I will be good with food and cleaning is going to count as exercise today. I think I'll shut up now and clean. I've read some blogs. Need to read more but I really want to get my room clean. I've been trying to for like weeks now. And it still isn't done. Ok shutting up now.