I think I'll just keep trying to restrict and not try to fast tomorrow. I'm thinking about having green beans, asparagus, 2 pieces whole wheat toast and 2 eggs tomorrow. Maybe an apple or something too. It depends. Hopefully I'll get in a decent amount of exercise tomorrow too. I feel like a mess. Probably because I am a mess. I need to get down to 110 asap. I need to restrict and exercise and work. I need to save my money and either move or go away to college or something. I need to do something. I need things going forward and looking up. Soon. Very soon. I can't keep going with things the way that they are. I keep thinking about buying cigarettes. I don't really have the money right now. I would when I get paid, but I really shouldn't spend my money on things like that. It'll only make me want pills/drugs more I think. I need to open a savings account and transfer most of my money into it when I get paid so I'll have less money to spend and can save it easier. I need to do that when I get paid. I think gas is the only thing I need to pay for with my paycheck. So I'll need about $100. If I can open a savings account and put in $300+ it would be a good start. My check should be $450+ so that would even leave a little extra. I'll probably need $850 (plus the cost of books and things) to do 2 classes at the juco that's in the town I work in. I would have to go as an out of state student. One juco in Illinois would cost me an extra $40 per credit hour (~$240 extra for 2 classes). And the one that I went to after I graduated (and I absolutely hated it there) would cost $2 less per credit hour (saving me a whole $12) if I live in the district (which I'm not sure if I am in district or not but I think I am). I would rather pay $12 and go to college that I may like instead of one that I hated. And it would cost me more than $12 in gas to drive to get there. That juco is 30-ish miles east of where I live and I work 30-ish miles west of were I live so that would make things difficult and involve a lot of driving. If I had a place to stay in Iowa, I would apply to work at Wal-Mart distribution for 4th shift. Work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday for 12 hours each day and then get Monday through Thursday off. Make $15.50 an hour too. It's almost worth applying for... Should I? I don't know. I should just shut up and go to bed. Pictures of skinny people and then bed for me. Hopefully I'll be productive and be in a better mood and not so scatter-brained tomorrow. I need to take some pictures and do a picture post yet. Ok. I'll shut up.