My new blog is Fighting For 105.

~Kes

So i am starting a new blog with aa under a new profile since its the two of us doing it. Its diet and exercise related and mma training related. Ill post a link when we start it and i cant link on my phone anyway. And i think im gonna start a new personal blog with the same profile. I just feel i need a new start. Im not going to delete this one though. Ill post a link to it too when i make it and am on a computer.
~Kes

I think I might start over blogging.  Like make a new one.  Quit using this one.  I've just not been using this one as much as I would like and I would like a new one.  One more towards my goal of a featherweight (105.1-115 lbs) MMA fighter although I would prefer bantamweight (95.1ish-105 lbs).  I don't know the low weight for bantam.  I just know 105.  Because 103 would be lovely for me.  I'm gonna think about it.  I'll post a link if I make a new one and follow back those who follow that blog.

~Kes

So ive been busy with cleaning mainly. And filling out job apps. Been away from the computer and not been on my phone really. I finally have my room like 98% clean. Which means i have room to work out in my room now. Basically in working on getting shit done. Find a job and lose some weight and get in shape. I want to be an mma fighter. Ill hopefully be back to blogging soon and making another blog with aa. And im pretty sure aa bought an engagement ring. Im nervous. I know hes been looking and stuff. I love him and he supports me in pretty much everything i do. Ive shown him my blog and hes ok with it. Ive shown him tumblr and thinspo and and he tells me either its too skinny or i can look like that. He is the most amazing guy ever. I love him. Anyway imma go and hopefully be back to blogging in a day or two. I send my love to all you lovies.
~Kes

AA has managed to make me go from super happy to super depressed.  So I'm off to go hide under my rock and cry about the fact that I put a shit ton of work into something just to have to undo 95% of it because AA wouldn't help me create a good stopping spot.  I wanted help but he left so my parents made me undo most of my work.  I worked on my room for like 6 hours and instead of having like 2 hours of work left I have like 5.  So much for that.  Rant done.  Off to cry as AA pisses me off some more.

~Kes

I weighed in today.  119 lbs.  Finally back under the 120's. Now to keep going lower.

~Kes

Well my good news is, I think I am on the right medications - no thanks to the psych ward that refused to admit me when I clearly needed it >:( .  But anyway, short post because I need to go to bed.  I've been kicking some ass at the gym lately.  Weighing in tomorrow since Monday clearly didn't work out.  Monday before that I don't think worked out either...  Anyway, got a lot of stuff I want to do tomorrow so I'm gonna try to kick some ass and get it done.  Or at least as much as possible.  A super long post is most likely in the future.  But a quick question - I was thinking about making a separate health/fitness related blog and having AA help with it.  Good idea?  Bad idea?  Would you check it out if I did so?  I was thinking like exercise routines (with and without equipment), videos on how to do some exercises, healthy recipes, and diet related stuff.  I would still use this blog.  AA had looked at some of it and he is ok with it.  He even is going to let me post a picture of him on here.  I'll probably do that tomorrow.  He looks kinda goofy in the picture because he was laughing but he looked pissed off otherwise.  Anyway, I should go to bed.  Night all.

~Kes