A couple comment replies -

Kiwi - I did tell AA that he was pissing me off.  I had been planning on shopping alone but I don't want to go to Iowa just for that.  I can do that online.  Online has a better selection of things anyway.  And it would keep me from buying food and other calorie-filled things.  And I have very few friends.  Most of which don't ever want to hang out.  They always claim to be busy with work or school (sometimes it is acceptable and it's finals time right now so I can't bitch when they say no - but they always pull this excuse even when school just started and they haven't had time to fall behind).  So I have no one else to go with.  And seeing as how I don't know where Zumba is (all I know is downtown), I can't exactly go by myself.  And I can't go with AA the next day because it is my mother's birthday so I can't really do anything unless it involves doing it with my mother.

a friend of ana - I've got two diet pills.  Dexatrim Max and Metabolife Green Tea.  I've had them forever and I was taking them regularly and then I quit.  I don't remember why exactly but I think it was because I was applying for jobs and didn't know if I would have to do a drug test.  I failed a drug test once (it was at a hospital though so it didn't really matter).  It came up positive for marijuana but I hadn't had any for like 2 years so it definitely wasn't right.  And the only thing I could come up with that could have given me a false positive was the diet pills I was taking.  I could be wrong though.  But that's the only thing I could come up with.  I need to start taking them again.  I was going to start taking them again once but then I got sick and my throat felt super swollen and pills were super hard to swallow so I didn't start taking them.

I don't know what to say to the other comments.  But thank you for taking the time to read and comment even though I haven't been.

And other than that, I made brownies.  125 calories each if you cut them into 24 (it's a cake pan or 9x13 size). I haven't tried them yet but the batter was good.  I'll post the recipe if they're good.  I'm sure you could reduce the calories by using like Splenda or any other low-cal/no-cal sweetener instead of sugar and that would save a lot of calories.  And if you know a substitute for eggs or margarine/butter that is lower-cal that would make them have fewer calories too.  I don't remember if it's eggs or butter but applesauce can be subbed in for something...  So if they're good I'll post that tomorrow (probably tomorrow anyway...).  As for what I'm doing tomorrow, I have no clue.  AA still wants to see me but I don't wanna see him.  I do in a way, but I mostly don't.  I've been dealing with a lot of stress and Kin and his brother have been on my mind for whatever reason and it's only making things worse.  I miss Kin.  I don't know what else to say.  I want pills...

~Kes