I weigh 122.  I was wanting to be 110-115 by Thursday.  Clearly that won't happen.  And my mother decided to do Thanksgiving Wednesday night which pretty much ruins my chance of getting below 120 by Thursday.  However, some bitch at work doesn't like me and said I was neglecting my clients, had an attitude, was telling the seasoned staff incorrect information and other shit.  So now my boss wants me to quit.  If this bitch does this shit 2 more times I'm fired.  And I have a feeling she will try to get me fired.  It was a bunch of lies and the boss wouldn't believe me.  The boss just said I was being argumentative and making up excuses.  So now I have to go to more training tomorrow and talk to the boss again.  She basically wants me to quit.  So I'm fucked so I need a new job and there's nothing around here which is why I need out of this area.  But I have nowhere to go.  So I'm fucked.  So yeah...  FML...  I don't know what to do.  J's coming back Wednesday or something.  But I really don't want to see him.  Or anyone for that matter.  I need Kin to get me some good pills.  Maybe he will actually do that Tuesday.  I doubt it though...  I just wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to deal with all of this.  Could I trade lives with my dog or one of the cats?  Their lives are good.  They eat when they want.  Sleep when they want.  Don't have to worry about anything (except my dog has to worry about getting a bath sometimes...).  I wish I was a fucking animal.  Their lives are chill...  I hate my life...  I just wanna die.

~Kes